I am leaving for Swaziland today! I'm excited and nervous and wading through uncertainty. I like to know how things are going to look and so far none of that has really happened. One thing I have learned is that I am not nearly as flexible as I used to be. With all the changes that have come my way over the past few months I have had to take each one and run with it. Everything in my flesh wants to run away from changes and unknowns and yet I know that I can't. I have been called out. I can't hide any more. It's time to step up to the plate and begin fighting for change to happen. Like I said, I am unsure of what the next few months are going to look like. When I look at how much time I have left in Africa I start to get a little overwhelmed. I begin asking questions like "Why did I plan to stay until August?", "Is it too late to go home in May?", "What difference could I possibly make?" and a list of "What ifs" come right alongside it. No matter, I am here, I am capable and the Lord is going to equip me in every way I need to be.