I have found myself stuck in this place and haven’t figured a way out. It’s not a bad place, just a place I don’t want to focus on in the process of leaving country again…support raising. I have been raising support to leave on various mission trips since 2004. God has been faithful in so many ways and I have been blown away at the ways the support has come in, many times at the last moment. But here I am again, preparing to leave for Africa for close to a year. My support account is looking kind of bare these days and I’ll be in Africa in less than 2 months! I feel like I have done a lot of what has been communicated to us in this whole process, newsletters, calls, house visits, coffee shop visits, and still feel like I haven’t gotten very far.
Is there something I am doing wrong? Are my supporters getting worn out from me continuously asking for financial support to leave country again? Is there a better way I could be communicating and stressing the importance of supporters? Am I being unfaithful in an area of my life that is causing the support to not be there? Is this really where I am supposed to be? And if I am having such a hard time raising support now for shorter trips, is it going to be just as hard if not harder when I am a full time missionary living on the field? These are all questions that run through my head on a frequent basis. And then I have to remind myself that I am exactly where God wants me right now. He has never failed me. The support has always come in.
So what do I do? I can’t give up, I can only press forward and trust that God is going to provide just like every other time. I can’t pick the things I want to trust God for. I can’t trust that this is where He wants me to be without trusting that He is going to provide the way for me to get there. I have to hold to the truth that He is faithful in every situation.
And God will provide for you. I am confident that God wants you in Africa. He has some great plans in store for you. Hang in there and keep doing what He wants you to do.